i wonder

if still i haven't realize how time would pass.

could i laugh about this? or make me sad again?

so her it is

Dear Future jan

if yer reading this well maybe yer still drop out? maybe not? or single again? we both know how we love.well dont be to blind again, okay? well. as far ive remember you still suck a spelling and numbers.sorry jan.hahaha..
well hope that you have become a great person , stay good,cool,.. just dont loss hope.and FYI yer smarter if yer  sad or depressed and most of all if yer happy. we both know yer gifted as well .you can analyze scenarios in a matter of sleep. and oh f-jan you can make everything as long as you put yer mind and heart on what yer doing. Dont give up on Imagination and try to visualize them and for sure it well come true.your'e a keen observer , manipulator .wanderer , your'e not a trying hard poser its just you.just be yer self..and right now the reason why your'e writing is because kma is about to leave you .. Yes it is hard for both of us to accept it. and thats how blind we are before.but still we love him so much. remember those days and thats make you what you are right now the reason why you have to find more jobs as you can.. to prove that long distance relationship is not a game.. to to show to her how much you love her despite .. you know what i mean f-jan . so try to be happy think for yer self also. KMA is not that kind of girl.. u know her more than anyone else. ..and yes its hard to accept the truth and the mere reason why yer writing this. JUST pray always, be happy f-jan. mag suwat ghpon ko para nimo okay?