GODBLESS US ALL

for those

well it is better to die than live ,  and yes i am not strong for this.cause from the start im alone. and yes my relatives are there and so as my family. but still i stood alone in this world of chaos and cruelty. how dare you judge me for what i am? and yes i have commit a sin, mistake.. but have you ask your'e self the other side of the coin?. but thank you for it..Does each one of you enjoyed it?your'e having fun?just make sure to remember it. spread it as long as you want.make me miserable also.hate me as long as you want. curse me ,judge me, but still i forgive all of you.. even though im the one that had caused this. before i am a no body but right now im the trending monster in your walls and comments , this is humanity the cruelness is bound on each souls.maybe your'e right im not deserving to be loved.. But iv'e never closed my mind for all of this.. now i am blaming myself for being to nice. BEING NICE IS EVIL.maybe this is my fault, i hope im not nice.now i hate being nice.and i cant really say "no" .Maybe island exist . Maybe right now..And Yes i thin k its better to fade than stay.im sorry for all the trouble ive caused. and KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO i love you..sorry if namugos ko. sorry sa pag abot nko sa imong kinabuhi.. nad sorry.. maybe im not that good enough . sometimes dili ra ka i ikaw ang nag kinahanglan . ako nag kinahanglan ko nimo.nag huwat nimo naningkamot para nimo.maski unsa pa kasakit imong nabuhat imo nasulti love gyd tika..wala man pud ko mamuiboi  its just the truth  and maybe i have love you more than my self. maski wala ko nag paka naa kopara nimo mahappy ka .. wala tika gi judge gyd..and thank you sa pag pa feel nimo nko na "nag lakaw ra gyd ko sa thin line sa imong love " and sorry sa mga sala nabuhat nko.. and sorry if napugos ka.. maybe dili gyd ko deserving ie love. maybe im just fooling on my self. im really love you gyd. maski unsa on nko ug lingaw2x ikaw ra man gyd ghpon. ikaw ra.. everytime im down its always me.i think i have to look back the other way.how stupid i was ..i KEEP on crying for you , fooling my self .trying to make this work out. yes maybe . but still i love you.and i owe you.sorry if i cant cross the distance between us .and i cant make it alone i think i need you. but i have built it half way. and im not good enough to make a rainbow bow.no im down as a dog. where were when i feel?yes this is unfair. but i always accept "unfair" to the fullest of you. but still i love you.. and im so sorry for what ive done and for what action im gonna make. .and yes i am good as dead. my head fell off already. yes now im the monster basterd. thannk you for all of those years and dont worry no matter what walai labot akng family ani.and for those.hope this could make all of you HAPPY. and this is not a DRAMA.and stop  Judging me .and yeah you have the right to feel that way..but still wala man ko masuko nimo.maski pag bisag unsa na imong gi libak nko. yeah sakto mo tanan. hope happy nalipay mo sa inung mga nasulti. pero wala ko nag lagot ninu.sorry if im a MONSTER.. SORRY IF I END IT LIKE THIS.. THANK YOU. AND GODBLESS ALL OF YOU.. SORRY

Jan Christian