Happy New Year 2012!!

GoodBye 2011 and Hello 2012..
The Dragon

Thank you 2011 for such year.Its been such a bitter-sweet year for me.and yes i have admit that im such a jerk.and fool .And even though im thankful for all the blessings that have received and enjoyed. and for the endless Love I have felt .And still I LOVE YOU KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO. Thank you and im so Sorry. Im thankful thats its you i have found in such blur. Happy New Year. and new Adventure is waiting for us both . GOD BLESS US AND SO OUR FAMILIES. :)


AND EVERY ONE HAPPY NEW YEAR..

Thank you :)

                                   Thank You for cheering me up, I love you :)

The change

I understood why i couldn’t find patience and consideration in my heart. why everybody seemed dispensable. why i wore my selfishness like a crown of fool’s gold.

why despite having all, i was empty.

But as i have found you. For being the king ,i am now a slave of you.I dont know why but love is always moves in a strange ways.and for that i am proud of it,even thou sometimes its hard.but our world is full of possibilities and nothing is impossible specially for a man who's heart is offered to its only master.YOU.

sucrose

there is sucrose in sacrifice.
And i know it will come someday,i'll wait till that day comes and even it takes forever.

Simply

There are pains you haven't seen. i write for the romances i could handle. for those i couldn't, i settle with desperate means. like scouring their FB profiles.An damn its annoying to figure out that still your'e still living in mystery.And why? 














Simply..




I JUST DON'T KNOW. :(

And Why?

Expectations and Reality are not meant for each other

She's Got You High :)

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

The sun's in the sky, its warming up your bare legs

You can't deny your looking for the sunset

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

It's the search for the time before it leaves without you

Have you lost your mind or has she taken all of yours too?

Whats this about? I figured love would shine through

We've lost romance this world has turned so see through

Open your mind, believe it's going to come to

Romance alive and hope she's going to tell you

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

She's got you high and you don't even know yet

The sun's in the sky, its warming up your bare legs

You can't deny your looking for the sunset

Whats this about? I figured love would shine through

We've lost romance this world has turned so see through

Open your mind, believe it's going to come to

Romance alive and hope she's going to tell you

She's got you high

She's got you high

She's got you high

She's got you high

She's got you high

She's got you high

Whats this about? I figured love would shine through

We've lost romance this world has turned so see through

Open your mind, believe it's going to come to

Romance alive and hope she's going to tell you

Whats this about? I figured love would shine through

We've lost romance this world has turned so see through

Open your mind, believe it's going to come to

Romance alive and hope

Happy

I know i Suck

I know i suck and im a liar :(

Nearest SUN

my heart's a vast sky with million little stars. and because you are the dearest, i call you Sun.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAN :)

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Kiligon man gyd ghpon ko mag tanaw ani na Video :)

Free our minds

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery

None but ourselves can free our minds

Freedom's not for sale

Undo the clasps cast the shackles to the sea

They flee from themselves and they can't understand

They burn humanity in their search to be free

But freedom's not for sale

Never going bac

Never going back Wrong way on a one way track Seems like I should begetting somewhere Somehow I'm neither here no therehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwvclgPgB18

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sooooonn ♥♥

even how

It’s not about how sweet you can be, how much gifts you give, or even how much you’re willing to do for your loved one.  It’s about how patient and understanding you can be when things aren’t going right, when someone does something that makes you angry, sad, or hurt.

I lose in almost every argument I have

In this relationship, I lose in almost every argument I have with my girlfriend.   Not because I have no sense of principle or opinion.  It’s because I think that for almost every argument, it’s not really important who wins, deep inside, most of us all know what’s right and wrong.  It’s just at the heat of the moment, we become stubborn, or we let our emotions take over our logic and we argue.  In the past, every time I win an argument, after it’s all over, I know deep inside who was right and who was wrong.  If you care and love someone, try to just let little meaningless things go, sometimes even let the big things slide... just a piece of my mind 

nov 11-14 love

she was the one, but I don't.

i know you think she was the one, but I don't. Now, I think you're just remembering the good stuff. Next time you look back, I, uh, I really think you should look again. 

hahaha.

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beauty of broken heart

the beauty of broken heart ,ideas pop up at high speed

Undeniable reality

Undeniable
broken heart that
can never be mended
by the useless silence
overpowering your tongue.
The same tongue you use
to praise
to kiss.to lie.
manipulate reality.

we are demons

" we are all demons and its always true "

everybody lies :)

:)

:)

there should be some happy place
for a supposedly clever kidwho has gone mad for (a wrong) love.

gone

were done.. its hard :(

GODBLESS US ALL

for those

well it is better to die than live ,  and yes i am not strong for this.cause from the start im alone. and yes my relatives are there and so as my family. but still i stood alone in this world of chaos and cruelty. how dare you judge me for what i am? and yes i have commit a sin, mistake.. but have you ask your'e self the other side of the coin?. but thank you for it..Does each one of you enjoyed it?your'e having fun?just make sure to remember it. spread it as long as you want.make me miserable also.hate me as long as you want. curse me ,judge me, but still i forgive all of you.. even though im the one that had caused this. before i am a no body but right now im the trending monster in your walls and comments , this is humanity the cruelness is bound on each souls.maybe your'e right im not deserving to be loved.. But iv'e never closed my mind for all of this.. now i am blaming myself for being to nice. BEING NICE IS EVIL.maybe this is my fault, i hope im not nice.now i hate being nice.and i cant really say "no" .Maybe island exist . Maybe right now..And Yes i thin k its better to fade than stay.im sorry for all the trouble ive caused. and KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO i love you..sorry if namugos ko. sorry sa pag abot nko sa imong kinabuhi.. nad sorry.. maybe im not that good enough . sometimes dili ra ka i ikaw ang nag kinahanglan . ako nag kinahanglan ko nimo.nag huwat nimo naningkamot para nimo.maski unsa pa kasakit imong nabuhat imo nasulti love gyd tika..wala man pud ko mamuiboi  its just the truth  and maybe i have love you more than my self. maski wala ko nag paka naa kopara nimo mahappy ka .. wala tika gi judge gyd..and thank you sa pag pa feel nimo nko na "nag lakaw ra gyd ko sa thin line sa imong love " and sorry sa mga sala nabuhat nko.. and sorry if napugos ka.. maybe dili gyd ko deserving ie love. maybe im just fooling on my self. im really love you gyd. maski unsa on nko ug lingaw2x ikaw ra man gyd ghpon. ikaw ra.. everytime im down its always me.i think i have to look back the other way.how stupid i was ..i KEEP on crying for you , fooling my self .trying to make this work out. yes maybe . but still i love you.and i owe you.sorry if i cant cross the distance between us .and i cant make it alone i think i need you. but i have built it half way. and im not good enough to make a rainbow bow.no im down as a dog. where were when i feel?yes this is unfair. but i always accept "unfair" to the fullest of you. but still i love you.. and im so sorry for what ive done and for what action im gonna make. .and yes i am good as dead. my head fell off already. yes now im the monster basterd. thannk you for all of those years and dont worry no matter what walai labot akng family ani.and for those.hope this could make all of you HAPPY. and this is not a DRAMA.and stop  Judging me .and yeah you have the right to feel that way..but still wala man ko masuko nimo.maski pag bisag unsa na imong gi libak nko. yeah sakto mo tanan. hope happy nalipay mo sa inung mga nasulti. pero wala ko nag lagot ninu.sorry if im a MONSTER.. SORRY IF I END IT LIKE THIS.. THANK YOU. AND GODBLESS ALL OF YOU.. SORRY

Jan Christian

this is not immaturity this is how sad and depressed i am right now. and SORRY

for those

well it is better to die than live ,  and yes i am not strong for this.cause from the start im alone. and yes my relatives are there and so as my family. but still i stood alone in this world of chaos and cruelty. how dare you judge me for what i am? and yes i have commit a sin, mistake.. but have you ask your'e self the other side of the coin?. but thank you for it..Does each one of you enjoyed it?your'e having fun?just make sure to remember it. spread it as long as you want.make me miserable also.hate me as long as you want. curse me ,judge me, but still i forgive all of you.. even though im the one that had caused this. before i am a no body but right now im the trending monster in your walls and comments , this is humanity the cruelness is bound on each souls.maybe your'e right im not deserving to be loved.. But iv'e never closed my mind for all of this.. now i am blaming myself for being to nice. BEING NICE IS EVIL.maybe this is my fault, i hope im not nice.now i hate being nice.and i cant really say "no" .Maybe island exist . Maybe right now..And Yes i thin k its better to fade than stay.im sorry for all the trouble ive caused. and KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO i love you..sorry if namugos ko. sorry sa pag abot nko sa imong kinabuhi.. nad sorry.. maybe im not that good enough . sometimes dili ra ka i ikaw ang nag kinahanglan . ako nag kinahanglan ko nimo.nag huwat nimo naningkamot para nimo.maski unsa pa kasakit imong nabuhat imo nasulti love gyd tika..wala man pud ko mamuiboi  its just the truth  and maybe i have love you more than my self. maski wala ko nag paka naa kopara nimo mahappy ka .. wala tika gi judge gyd..and thank you sa pag pa feel nimo nko na "nag lakaw ra gyd ko sa thin line sa imong love " and sorry sa mga sala nabuhat nko.. and sorry if napugos ka.. maybe dili gyd ko deserving ie love. maybe im just fooling on my self. im really love you gyd. maski unsa on nko ug lingaw2x ikaw ra man gyd ghpon. ikaw ra.. everytime im down its always me.i think i have to look back the other way.how stupid i was ..i KEEP on crying for you , fooling my self .trying to make this work out. yes maybe . but still i love you.and i owe you.sorry if i cant cross the distance between us .and i cant make it alone i think i need you. but i have built it half way. and im not good enough to make a rainbow bow.no im down as a dog. where were when i feel?yes this is unfair. but i always accept "unfair" to the fullest of you. but still i love you.. and im so sorry for what ive done and for what action im gonna make. .and yes i am good as dead. my head fell off already. yes now im the monster basterd. thannk you for all of those years and dont worry no matter what walai labot akng family ani.and for those.hope this could make all of you HAPPY. and this is not a DRAMA.and stop  Judging me .and yeah you have the right to feel that way..but still wala man ko masuko nimo.maski pag bisag unsa na imong gi libak nko. yeah sakto mo tanan. hope happy nalipay mo sa inung mga nasulti. pero wala ko nag lagot ninu.sorry if im a MONSTER.. SORRY IF I END IT LIKE THIS.. THANK YOU. AND GODBLESS ALL OF YOU.. SORRY

Jan Christian

the end

for those

well it is better to die than live ,  and yes i am not strong for this.cause from the start im alone. and yes my relatives are there and so as my family. but still i stood alone in this world of chaos and cruelty. how dare you judge me for what i am? and yes i have commit a sin, mistake.. but have you ask your'e self the other side of the coin?. but thank you for it..Does each one of you enjoyed it?your'e having fun?just make sure to remember it. spread it as long as you want.make me miserable also.hate me as long as you want. curse me ,judge me, but still i forgive all of you.. even though im the one that had caused this. before i am a no body but right now im the trending monster in your walls and comments , this is humanity the cruelness is bound on each souls.maybe your'e right im not deserving to be loved.. But iv'e never closed my mind for all of this.. now i am blaming myself for being to nice. BEING NICE IS EVIL.maybe this is my fault, i hope im not nice.now i hate being nice.and i cant really say "no" .Maybe island exist . Maybe right now..And Yes i thin k its better to fade than stay.im sorry for all the trouble ive caused. and KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO i love you..sorry if namugos ko. sorry sa pag abot nko sa imong kinabuhi.. nad sorry.. maybe im not that good enough . sometimes dili ra ka i ikaw ang nag kinahanglan . ako nag kinahanglan ko nimo.nag huwat nimo naningkamot para nimo.maski unsa pa kasakit imong nabuhat imo nasulti love gyd tika..wala man pud ko mamuiboi  its just the truth  and maybe i have love you more than my self. maski wala ko nag paka naa kopara nimo mahappy ka .. wala tika gi judge gyd..and thank you sa pag pa feel nimo nko na "nag lakaw ra gyd ko sa thin line sa imong love " and sorry sa mga sala nabuhat nko.. and sorry if napugos ka.. maybe dili gyd ko deserving ie love. maybe im just fooling on my self. im really love you gyd. maski unsa on nko ug lingaw2x ikaw ra man gyd ghpon. ikaw ra.. everytime im down its always me.i think i have to look back the other way.how stupid i was ..i KEEP on crying for you , fooling my self .trying to make this work out. yes maybe . but still i love you.and i owe you.sorry if i cant cross the distance between us .and i cant make it alone i think i need you. but i have built it half way. and im not good enough to make a rainbow bow.no im down as a dog. where were when i feel?yes this is unfair. but i always accept "unfair" to the fullest of you. but still i love you.. and im so sorry for what ive done and for what action im gonna make. .and yes i am good as dead. my head fell off already. yes now im the monster basterd. thannk you for all of those years and dont worry no matter what walai labot akng family ani.and for those.hope this could make all of you HAPPY. and this is not a DRAMA.and stop  Judging me .and yeah you have the right to feel that way..but still wala man ko masuko nimo.maski pag bisag unsa na imong gi libak nko. yeah sakto mo tanan. hope happy nalipay mo sa inung mga nasulti. pero wala ko nag lagot ninu.sorry if im a MONSTER.. SORRY IF I END IT LIKE THIS.. THANK YOU. AND GODBLESS ALL OF YOU.. SORRY

Jan Christian

im sorry

for those

well it is better to die than live ,  and yes i am not strong for this.cause from the start im alone. and yes my relatives are there and so as my family. but still i stood alone in this world of chaos and cruelty. how dare you judge me for what i am? and yes i have commit a sin, mistake.. but have you ask your'e self the other side of the coin?. but thank you for it..Does each one of you enjoyed it?your'e having fun?just make sure to remember it. spread it as long as you want.make me miserable also.hate me as long as you want. curse me ,judge me, but still i forgive all of you.. even though im the one that had caused this. before i am a no body but right now im the trending monster in your walls and comments , this is humanity the cruelness is bound on each souls.maybe your'e right im not deserving to be loved.. But iv'e never closed my mind for all of this.. now i am blaming myself for being to nice. BEING NICE IS EVIL.maybe this is my fault, i hope im not nice.now i hate being nice.and i cant really say "no" .Maybe island exist . Maybe right now..And Yes i thin k its better to fade than stay.im sorry for all the trouble ive caused. and KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO i love you..sorry if namugos ko. sorry sa pag abot nko sa imong kinabuhi.. nad sorry.. maybe im not that good enough . sometimes dili ra ka i ikaw ang nag kinahanglan . ako nag kinahanglan ko nimo.nag huwat nimo naningkamot para nimo.maski unsa pa kasakit imong nabuhat imo nasulti love gyd tika..wala man pud ko mamuiboi  its just the truth  and maybe i have love you more than my self. maski wala ko nag paka naa kopara nimo mahappy ka .. wala tika gi judge gyd..and thank you sa pag pa feel nimo nko na "nag lakaw ra gyd ko sa thin line sa imong love " and sorry sa mga sala nabuhat nko.. and sorry if napugos ka.. maybe dili gyd ko deserving ie love. maybe im just fooling on my self. im really love you gyd. maski unsa on nko ug lingaw2x ikaw ra man gyd ghpon. ikaw ra.. everytime im down its always me.i think i have to look back the other way.how stupid i was ..i KEEP on crying for you , fooling my self .trying to make this work out. yes maybe . but still i love you.and i owe you.sorry if i cant cross the distance between us .and i cant make it alone i think i need you. but i have built it half way. and im not good enough to make a rainbow bow.no im down as a dog. where were when i feel?yes this is unfair. but i always accept "unfair" to the fullest of you. but still i love you.. and im so sorry for what ive done and for what action im gonna make. .and yes i am good as dead. my head fell off already. yes now im the monster basterd. thannk you for all of those years and dont worry no matter what walai labot akng family ani.and for those.hope this could make all of you HAPPY. and this is not a DRAMA.and stop  Judging me .and yeah you have the right to feel that way..but still wala man ko masuko nimo.maski pag bisag unsa na imong gi libak nko. yeah sakto mo tanan. hope happy nalipay mo sa inung mga nasulti. pero wala ko nag lagot ninu.sorry if im a MONSTER.. SORRY IF I END IT LIKE THIS.. THANK YOU. AND GODBLESS ALL OF YOU.. SORRY

Jan Christian

for

for those

well it is better to die than live ,  and yes i am not strong for this.cause from the start im alone. and yes my relatives are there and so as my family. but still i stood alone in this world of chaos and cruelty. how dare you judge me for what i am? and yes i have commit a sin, mistake.. but have you ask your'e self the other side of the coin?. but thank you for it..Does each one of you enjoyed it?your'e having fun?just make sure to remember it. spread it as long as you want.make me miserable also.hate me as long as you want. curse me ,judge me, but still i forgive all of you.. even though im the one that had caused this. before i am a no body but right now im the trending monster in your walls and comments , this is humanity the cruelness is bound on each souls.maybe your'e right im not deserving to be loved.. But iv'e never closed my mind for all of this.. now i am blaming myself for being to nice. BEING NICE IS EVIL.maybe this is my fault, i hope im not nice.now i hate being nice.and i cant really say "no" .Maybe island exist . Maybe right now..And Yes i thin k its better to fade than stay.im sorry for all the trouble ive caused. and KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO i love you..sorry if namugos ko. sorry sa pag abot nko sa imong kinabuhi.. nad sorry.. maybe im not that good enough . sometimes dili ra ka i ikaw ang nag kinahanglan . ako nag kinahanglan ko nimo.nag huwat nimo naningkamot para nimo.maski unsa pa kasakit imong nabuhat imo nasulti love gyd tika..wala man pud ko mamuiboi  its just the truth  and maybe i have love you more than my self. maski wala ko nag paka naa kopara nimo mahappy ka .. wala tika gi judge gyd..and thank you sa pag pa feel nimo nko na "nag lakaw ra gyd ko sa thin line sa imong love " and sorry sa mga sala nabuhat nko.. and sorry if napugos ka.. maybe dili gyd ko deserving ie love. maybe im just fooling on my self. im really love you gyd. maski unsa on nko ug lingaw2x ikaw ra man gyd ghpon. ikaw ra.. everytime im down its always me.i think i have to look back the other way.how stupid i was ..i KEEP on crying for you , fooling my self .trying to make this work out. yes maybe . but still i love you.and i owe you.sorry if i cant cross the distance between us .and i cant make it alone i think i need you. but i have built it half way. and im not good enough to make a rainbow bow.no im down as a dog. where were when i feel?yes this is unfair. but i always accept "unfair" to the fullest of you. but still i love you.. and im so sorry for what ive done and for what action im gonna make. .and yes i am good as dead. my head fell off already. yes now im the monster basterd. thannk you for all of those years and dont worry no matter what walai labot akng family ani.and for those.hope this could make all of you HAPPY. and this is not a DRAMA.and stop  Judging me .and yeah you have the right to feel that way..but still wala man ko masuko nimo.maski pag bisag unsa na imong gi libak nko. yeah sakto mo tanan. hope happy nalipay mo sa inung mga nasulti. pero wala ko nag lagot ninu.sorry if im a MONSTER.. SORRY IF I END IT LIKE THIS.. THANK YOU. AND GODBLESS ALL OF YOU.. SORRY

Jan Christian

for those

well it is better to die than live ,  and yes i am not strong for this.cause from the start im alone. and yes my relatives are there and so as my family. but still i stood alone in this world of chaos and cruelty. how dare you judge me for what i am? and yes i have commit a sin, mistake.. but have you ask your'e self the other side of the coin?. but thank you for it..Does each one of you enjoyed it?your'e having fun?just make sure to remember it. spread it as long as you want.make me miserable also.hate me as long as you want. curse me ,judge me, but still i forgive all of you.. even though im the one that had caused this. before i am a no body but right now im the trending monster in your walls and comments , this is humanity the cruelness is bound on each souls.maybe your'e right im not deserving to be loved.. But iv'e never closed my mind for all of this.. now i am blaming myself for being to nice. BEING NICE IS EVIL.maybe this is my fault, i hope im not nice.now i hate being nice.and i cant really say "no" .Maybe island exist . Maybe right now..And Yes i thin k its better to fade than stay.im sorry for all the trouble ive caused. and KRISTINE MARIE ANTONIO i love you..sorry if namugos ko. sorry sa pag abot nko sa imong kinabuhi.. nad sorry.. maybe im not that good enough . sometimes dili ra ka i ikaw ang nag kinahanglan . ako nag kinahanglan ko nimo.nag huwat nimo naningkamot para nimo.maski unsa pa kasakit imong nabuhat imo nasulti love gyd tika..wala man pud ko mamuiboi  its just the truth  and maybe i have love you more than my self. maski wala ko nag paka naa kopara nimo mahappy ka .. wala tika gi judge gyd..and thank you sa pag pa feel nimo nko na "nag lakaw ra gyd ko sa thin line sa imong love " and sorry sa mga sala nabuhat nko.. and sorry if napugos ka.. maybe dili gyd ko deserving ie love. maybe im just fooling on my self. im really love you gyd. maski unsa on nko ug lingaw2x ikaw ra man gyd ghpon. ikaw ra.. everytime im down its always me.i think i have to look back the other way.how stupid i was ..i KEEP on crying for you , fooling my self .trying to make this work out. yes maybe . but still i love you.and i owe you.sorry if i cant cross the distance between us .and i cant make it alone i think i need you. but i have built it half way. and im not good enough to make a rainbow bow.no im down as a dog. where were when i feel?yes this is unfair. but i always accept "unfair" to the fullest of you. but still i love you.. and im so sorry for what ive done and for what action im gonna make. .and yes i am good as dead. my head fell off already. yes now im the monster basterd. thannk you for all of those years and dont worry no matter what walai labot akng family ani.and for those.hope this could make all of you HAPPY. and this is not a DRAMA.and stop  Judging me .and yeah you have the right to feel that way..but still wala man ko masuko nimo.maski pag bisag unsa na imong gi libak nko. yeah sakto mo tanan. hope happy nalipay mo sa inung mga nasulti. pero wala ko nag lagot ninu.sorry if im a MONSTER.. SORRY IF I END IT LIKE THIS.. THANK YOU. AND GODBLESS ALL OF YOU.. SORRY

Jan Christian

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 major disappointment, rejection, failure, or loss such as breaking up with a girlfriend or boyfriend, failing a big exam, or witnessing family turmoil. Since the overwhelming majority of those who commit suicide have a mental or substance-related disorder, they often have difficulty coping with such crippling stressors. They are unable to see that their life can turn around, unable to recognize that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Usually, the common reasons for suicide listed above are actually not the "causes" of the suicide, but rather triggers for suicide in a person suffering from a mental illness or substance-related disorder.

libakakosataman

yes anger is a gift..enjoy using it. and yes i think i deserve it. so go  ahead enjoy. .

paper heart.

What is LOVE?

cruelty is bound on our souls

other bound other

if only i could visit the other path of this time.  for certain ways of thinking if only i could travel paths.would the other jan , is like this? like the one whos writing this right now?or as worst i am right now? or as happy as a rainbow or as cold as dead? if only. god knows.how can god exist in such way? and yes i may pointless in all of my ideas and metaphors but the main argument is could a certain path to other dimension exist? could their be other us? other we? other earth? could love bound this gap?

:(

i wonder

if still i haven't realize how time would pass.

could i laugh about this? or make me sad again?

so her it is

Dear Future jan

if yer reading this well maybe yer still drop out? maybe not? or single again? we both know how we love.well dont be to blind again, okay? well. as far ive remember you still suck a spelling and numbers.sorry jan.hahaha..
well hope that you have become a great person , stay good,cool,.. just dont loss hope.and FYI yer smarter if yer  sad or depressed and most of all if yer happy. we both know yer gifted as well .you can analyze scenarios in a matter of sleep. and oh f-jan you can make everything as long as you put yer mind and heart on what yer doing. Dont give up on Imagination and try to visualize them and for sure it well come true.your'e a keen observer , manipulator .wanderer , your'e not a trying hard poser its just you.just be yer self..and right now the reason why your'e writing is because kma is about to leave you .. Yes it is hard for both of us to accept it. and thats how blind we are before.but still we love him so much. remember those days and thats make you what you are right now the reason why you have to find more jobs as you can.. to prove that long distance relationship is not a game.. to to show to her how much you love her despite .. you know what i mean f-jan . so try to be happy think for yer self also. KMA is not that kind of girl.. u know her more than anyone else. ..and yes its hard to accept the truth and the mere reason why yer writing this. JUST pray always, be happy f-jan. mag suwat ghpon ko para nimo okay?

i've forgotten

and yes forgotten as nothing else left  a side.

nothing is easy

and yeah .   im writing again. maybe sadness is the key for me to open up my creativity .well im not as easy it is, How can it be so easy?what the fuck. im a blind man in a dark room full of pointless rounds. and " sometimes i speak/write in metaphors" how can i ease this pain? could playing online game help me forget this sadness? or i should embrace it? nothing is easy live in ease.

"walking in a thin line"

We all does , life is not easy and its unfair, but sometimes we are give the chance to make it ease.

i talk as i can

blah blah blah blah blah blah

What is

What is LOvE

What is LOVE? 

Feel free to Comment and tell me what is LOVE ?

I

I thought I was okay.
I thought I was getting better.
I thought I was happy.

I thought things were content.
I thought things were changing.
I thought things were different.

I thought this feeling went away.
I thought this emotion was gone for good.
I thought this pain disappeared.

I thought I was right,
But the truth is...
I thought wrong.

only and it matters

It's not that I want to be the only girl in your life, I just want to be the only one that matters.
-CHAR- 

http://www.facebook.com/charitycinches

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres"

1 Corinthians 13

i've

"I've been told just to let it go, I've been told to give it up, but i can't, no, i won't"

The no Surprise

Be it a smile as you walk by,
Or giving to a stranger nearby,
Are what make differences, big or small
In each and every life.

Then comes the time when you're the one,
Wishing someone would flash a smile,
Wishing someone would say hello,
Just so you can keep on going.

That yearning, that yearning,
Of hoping someone cares
Is the reason in the kindness,
Hoping to make someone's day
So in turn one day when you need most,
Someone would smile your way.
I think i should stop.
Life is like a puzzle.

oh dream

Yes i know and it hurt's... Maybe maybe maybe. i just don't want to think of it. Is  it that easy?

:)

Kimi Dake Wo

desperate means

there are pains you haven’t seen. i write for the romances i could handle. for those i couldn’t, i settle with desperate means.

:):(

Sometimes we have to lose
The things that inhibit us
The things that beats us down
We have to lose our egos
Our sense of indestructibility
Our peace of mind
And even ourselves
In order to love
When loving it brings us
To many sweet places
Makes us understand
Love transforms happiness
Into something more tangible
Some say its better to have loved then lost
Than never having loved at all
But when it comes to love
Losing isn't always a bad thing
And gaining isn't always a good thing
 "janjan"

NGNL

no glove no love? 

heroism of martyrdom

‎"It is hard to go through the reality of life with glazed eyes" janjan

But it is tiring: trying to sound sad because metaphors for loneliness are more attractive in poetry. It gets in the nerves sometimes: you know, the very idea of heroism and martyrdom.  Sometimes, it is too sickening to give so much of oneself to people when really .

Fadism

Perhaps I have been so attracted to the passion of tragedy that I have embraced the prophecy of screwing up everything that was good. Perhaps it had something to do with my affinity for the broken. Perhaps, it was because pain was the fad. " janjan"

i never do it right. i will always remain as part of his “other” world, never to be mixed with his cool crowd.

 i never do it right. i will always remain as part of his “other” world, never to be mixed with his cool crowd.

Scheme

But your apologies sound genuine,
Even though your love is,
But still I am confused;
Will I want you when I wake? Yes.


But,
If I'm honest with you, truly serious,
Even I don't know what's wrong with me,
It's not so easy to tell you this.

Forgive its tangled scheme...

I thought there was some truth in your lies,
And longing in your eyes,
But it turns out i was wrong.
You can be alone with your secrets,
And drown in all your regrets,
Because you were just pretending all along,
Make me wrong..Yes i am wrong.


Trying not to fall,
or give up at all.
Just about to lose everything,
then I found a ring.
Promise it held,
a turtle in ints shell.
Time to take things soft and slow,
like a kiss after hell.


I'm sorry if I can only wish,
and not dream.
I'm sorry if love is not how
it seems.
I'm sorry if I can't tell you
its gonna be alright.
I'm sorry that life
is always just a fight. 
But love always pravails.

Romeo is no Fool,

(c)jan

WSAWITTTBTSO

Words may fail you sometimes,
Sometimes they just aren't enough,
As you stare blankly down at the page,
Words may have escaped you and left you,
In a horrible mess you may just sit there with tears,
Tears of frustration,
Tears of anger,
Tears of an overwhelming world,
But just you remember this is but a temporary state,
Things will get better and the words will be found,
So I hope those pesky words come back to you soon,
But for now.shhhhh..

frustrations makes notes.

there are pains you haven’t seen. i write for the romances i could handle. for those i couldn’t, i settle with desperate means. like scouring their FB profiles like sentinels. you see, while an entire plethora run after me, i run after somebody . it isn’t really all glam right here ,just like what ive said ..

if the heart breaks once more,
i’m gonna go home and see
if i can break it some more.
 there should be some happy place
for a supposedly clever kid

"in this world of prejudices, i am basic arithmetic. i am a transparent surface that does not ask too much for thoughts"

"But now I'm here, I don't wish to leave"

Trapped in time
A mirage of hope and change
A swirling mass, no mercy now
If the truth hurts prepare for pain.

It cannot be random. It can never be that the universe fcuked things up and had you erroneously aligned with my stars. I demand reason as I have reasoned out on everything I have been responsible for.
Because I, once thinker, had been caught off-guard by your reality.
But Still Hearts Shall pravail.. And How Love makes me smile
I love u still kristine marie antonio
(c)jan